where to start, im not sure why im even creating this blog, as i do associate bloggers with dick heads..... but alas i need a venting point for how i feel.
this is not a blog trying to interest anyone i am soley writing this so i can clear my head, the things i say on here are the things i dont have anyone to tell.
and this is the point where it seems silly... i do have someone to talk about all of this stuff with i have a girlfriend who i really do love more than i htought i could, however slushy that sounds, but i find it increadibly hard to talk to anyone about anyhting to do with feelings as it seems pointless to burden anyone else with the stupid things running around in my head, it makes no difference either way if i tell people or not so what ill do is just write stuff on here its kinda like pretending that im talking to people and apparently doing that is meant to help, so lets see if talking to "people" will help my head out abit
i feel like such an idiot writing on here mainly becuase i sound like a self pittying knob head and thats one thing i hate i dont belive half the people who say they have depression, i think people nowadays throw that word around lightly, we dont have to deal with any hardships its alll aload of crap all we have to deal with is social interaction....which apparently im shit at so not in the best situation for living in this world haha
so now ive sat down to write about how im feeling i cant think of all the stuff that spins around in my head all day winding me up typical maybe ill leave it till later when somethings clear in my head that i want to rant about
